Have A Good Old Moan....

I just finished Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, and now I have to wait until tomorrow because I have to buy the next one as mine is at my uncle's place and I doubt he'll give it back...I just wanna reaaaaad it D:

my chest hurts so much from coughing 🙁

OH has been watching American football and baseball virtually all weekend. I am bored out of my tree.

Ive got myself stuck i a horrible loop with my uni work.
We got set a 3 week project in which to design costumes for all characters in othello in any situation which my happen e.g in the morning, at night, in venice, in cyprus, etc. This adds up to over 100 designs, and because of that my brains like 'aaggghhhhhh you cant do that, do it later when you've watched this tv show' then after i watch the show, its like, 'nooooo, paint your nails instead.' now our lecturers moved the deadline forward a week and i've done 6 designs and have absolutely no motivation or inspiration to do any more =[

I applied for two jobs today in Peter Mark (hairdressing chain in Ireland) as I need some money and all that jazz, but I've been very bad recently ( had a diagnosis changed from other psych problem to Schizophrenia which has been a huge downer recently), and started new medication and I think I've done the wrong thing applying for jobs when I'm really not well, but with a lot of pressure from family and all I feel i had to do it and all blegh and all.  I'm hoping that the meds will kick in soon especially if they want me for a interview and I just can't handle it all with college on top of things (which I'm coincidentally failing due to not being well)....I mean I'm fine moodwise, but god everything else is just so hard right now....  Blah, sorry for the rant, need to get it out of my system  🙁

I was thinking about applying for a year abroad at uni next year and because I’ve messed about too much I’ve gone and missed the deadline without realising and now I feel like I’ve missed one of the biggest oppurtunities of my life and I feel all crappy.

I wanted to talk to my Mom & wish happy birthday but was fussing with the earpiece & headset thingy. The ear plastic popped off, the battery was dead and worked enough for one sentence  *devil*, I couldn't figure out the buttons lol, It feels like a torture device for my head and ears. So after all that I couldn't remember what to say except happy she was safe etc. sigh. Shwew, maybe now I will sleep.  I get all choked up and forget everything. :'(

Theres not enough time in a week for all the things I have to do in it!!

compete in gishwhes, go to the dentist, do full days at uni, take part in a haunted walk, write an essay, go to work, bake someone some cakes......

Basically I've agreed over tha past however long to do a load of stuff, and didn't realise at the time that ALL OF IT falls in one week!

well, guess who actually got invited to a halloween party, just about the first party i've ever been invited to, and pretty much the only year i've actually set out to do something proper for halloween.

and guess the eff what? working. nope not even a 12-5 shift, a 5-10. a five, f***ing ten.
so, while i'm slaving away working my a$$ off, everyone is out enjoying halloween. i'll probably get sent home early AS USUAL because it's forecast awful weather and it'll be dead cause, well, people tend to do things on halloween... *cough*.. so i'll not get full pay and i'll practically be working for no reason. gunna sulk all effing night because the only reason im the one working is cause everyone else whined to the boss "oh we're going to a massive party on halloween can i have that day off please *cry cry*" and they probably thought, oh, poh don't go out much, looks kinda lonely, she'll be fine with working.

well no, i'm not. and for this i am DEFO not working christmas day, me and mum planned a whole story up so i can't work xmas, i'm "going to see family down just past birmingham we're staying from christmas eve till night of boxing day" that way i don't work any of it. i actually would work boxing day though.. so idk. i don't wanna work new years in a way cause my boyfriend and our 'klan' might be having another get together thingy and i don't want em to re-arrange again just cause work give me the sh** shifts.

/rant over
okay now i have a good but i can't be bothered to post it, we'll see!

Just for once, I would like to have a week's holiday from work and not end up besieged by germs. I feel like poo  *ill*

Didn't get the job:( ah well another interview on friday

I am so scared about not getting this job after my interview today.
It went better than the last interview I had there but because of last time I am so so scared.
I nearly had a panic attack on the way in because I thought the same guy who interviewed me last time was gunna be there, thankfully he wasn't.
But I am so scared because I really need the money.

Spent most of the day working on a set of wool dreads with the intention of selling them, but when I took them out of the washing machine I noticed there was a hole in the pillowcase, so some of the dreads came out during the wash and I think they might now be unfit to sell 🙁 I was really counting on them coming out okay as I desperately need the extra money at the moment 🙁

my boyfriend might lose his job next week and he's really upset and I can't seem to cheer him up 🙁

I'm looking at pictures of people from my school who did an exchange year, and I wish I could afford doing one too 🙁