Have A Good Old Moan....

Just stood on a thorn. Ouch!

Just stood on a thorn. Ouch!

Bet you wish it was a pippa thorne 😉 mwahahahhaa

*fairy dust**

Haha! 

Grrr. Fed up with the man. He's been away, came back 2 hours ago, so I'd planned a nice 'sit in the garden with a bbq' evening. So here I am outside with the.music and food while he's inside watching tv. He 'cant be bothered faffing with outside' (wtf?!)and he's only been away for the weekend so doesn't see the point in wanting to do the quality time thing.

Why oh why have I booked a whole week away with this?  -r-

Oh and my hair's still pink. Damn that vr.

Meh. Someone who is supposed to be one of my best friends decided to split with her boyfriend and took the kids. Horrible situation, everybody loses. She told me lots of stuff in one phonecall and since then I haven't heard anything. I send her messages, but get really short answers. She told me she can't meet up, doesn't ask for help from me. She has another friend who she is hanging on to now. And I am left completely in the dark.

I know this is not about me, I realise it might sounds like I think it is. But it isn't. It's just hard to be sidelined again (this kind of stuff has happened before) when I want to help her with all my heart. I miss her and her kids and I don't know when she'll allow me back in her life again.

At least she replies to me, even if it's short messages. Mutual friends have mailed her and gotten no repsonse at all. Does show she's not in a good place and this whole situation breaks my heart. Poor kids, poor friend and also poor ex boyfriend. She decided to leave quite suddenly and for him completely out of the blue. From seeing your kids daily to having to make appointments to see them must be terrible. 🙁

I'm so lonely.
I have no friends in Manchester, all of my friends have gone home for the summer, my boyfriend's gone to Newquay for the summer and whilst I'm going to see him at the end of July it doesn't solve how I'm feeling now.
I have no money and no job.
I feel like such a failure because literally all I do is stay in the house all day by myself doing nothing whilst applying for jobs that I know I'll never get.

I can't do this anymore, I really can't.

I'm so lonely.
I have no friends in Manchester, all of my friends have gone home for the summer, my boyfriend's gone to Newquay for the summer and whilst I'm going to see him at the end of July it doesn't solve how I'm feeling now.
I have no money and no job.
I feel like such a failure because literally all I do is stay in the house all day by myself doing nothing whilst applying for jobs that I know I'll never get.

I can't do this anymore, I really can't.

I normally live in Manchester for Uni and I've had to go home for summer and I feel the same as you. I wish I was still in Manchester 🙁

I wish I could help you both! @marthakins and @marthamagic. It's a coincidence that you both feel the same and have the same name!

I wish I could help you both! @marthakins and @marthamagic. It's a coincidence that you both feel the same and have the same name!

I know, it made me smile a bit. I just wish I was still in manc, I want a friend called Martha.

I wish I could help you both! @marthakins and @marthamagic. It's a coincidence that you both feel the same and have the same name!

I know, it made me smile a bit. I just wish I was still in manc, I want a friend called Martha.

sameeee. I get so giddy whenever I meet someone called Martha haha because I'm not used to it.

Oh my god, I seriously feel like I'm going to explode!

Having horrible braxton hicks and have been for about a week and they're just horrible, some days it feels like it's worse but then it goes away so it's like my body is saying 'hey you're in labour! actually, nah you're not, gutted!' just so so uncomfortable and he needs to hurry up. The midwife has said to be ready and expect him any day but it doesn't seem like he has that same plan.

I've been trying to plan the wedding as well and if one more person tells me 'oh really?! you can't do that' I'm going to slap them right in the face. I'm a short person so I want a short dress, which my friend is designing and making for me and I'm really excited because it will be EXACTLY what I want to wear. But when people ask if I've thought about a dress and I tell them the plan all I get is 'Really?! THAT skirt?!' yes that skirt and I actually love it. I've been told that I can't have skulls anywhere on it....as if I was planning on it! Just because it is a halloween wedding it will still be my wedding dress and it will be appropriate for a church wedding. I've also been told that I shouldn't dress my bridesmaids in black, now I'm a superstitious person and because of that I was always dead set on getting married on a Wednesday in December, but my theme is black and purple and my maid of honour is scared of the colour purple so I can hardly dress her in it so the dress will be black. If I'm buying the dress and it isn't her wearing it as a 'symbol of her disapproval' then it's not bad luck and they will look amazing as and when I actually pick one, but at the rate we're going they're going to be naked. Also Sam has told me that I can't have my 2 nieces as bridesmaids because it'll throw everything off balance, which I get but I don't like a lot of girls so I'm probably going to have to have a couple of barely friends as bridesmaids to even up the numbers with his groomsmen.

AND the thunderstorms are stressing out my little ferrets but I can't bring them in 🙁 I've given them extra bedding and closed their window so they can't hear it so much but I went out to check on them earlier and the eldest was freaking out, never seen him like it and I felt so bad having to put him away after a quick cuddle because the rain came back. Big smushes due to them in the morning I think!

He should not leave me alone at night, I am so stressed.

There's a lot of things you've said there about the wedding that I just don't understand.

Scared of purple? Bizarre, but ok, people have stupid fears (I have a couple). Symbols of stuff are just that. A symbol and only a symbol and symbols mean nothing if you give them no meaning. And so there's no impact on "luck" unless you let it impact. "luck" doesn't really exist anyway, but I'll save that argument 🙂

Throwing things off balance with 2 neices? huh? What balance of what? Who cares about balance of stuff? Unless you're all going to be on a see saw and you'll fall off with 2 neices... Really, I think I understand what balance he means... but really? Who cares! You could have 50 bridesmaids or 1/2 and what would matter? Though with 50 you'd have crowded photos and with half you'd have gory photos... 😉

The 'wrong' skirt? How is there such a thing as a skirt you can't wear for a wedding? Unless it's literally showing your bum, how can anything be 'THAT' skirt.

Skulls are a thing in medieval churches! In a lot of churches in fact. But ok, I understand not having them. The idea of them being offensive in church makes me smile though. Again, it's a symbol thing and in reality means nothing.

Do not justify yourself. Just say, with a totally straight face with no emotion, to anyone who says anything, "it's my wedding". Repeat it any time they say anything that questions your choices. Just keep repeating it. They can't argue if you're not arguing. Well, they can try, they can think you're wrong, but they aren't going to get anywhere. The only time to take heed is if someone has a deadly nut allergy and you've decided on every part of the reception food will contain peanuts... 😀 Just trying to put a little perspective on this, it's so easy for people to get caught up in traditions, others opinions and the minutiae. Remember, nothing has to be perfect (no one will notice if it isn't) and it IS YOUR wedding.

I'm afraid this is one reason I hate weddings.

Hope the ferrets are better this morning.

Sorry I was ranting so it probably didn't come out right :/

The balance thing is that he has 4 adults in his bridal party and it would mean I'd have 2 adults and 2 children which would make it uneven for dances and photos etc, I see what he means but they'd look so cute!!

The skirt is very big and it is short but it's not mega short it'll sit just above my knees and have a lot of layers making it a bit different and to some people it's inappropriate and to others 'it's very me' bit it's just the constant comments of it that's doing my head in, I'm going for a plain high necked top so personally I think it's going to be perfect. I'll see if I can find a picture

I've been a lot more traditional with the wedding than I thought I'd be to be honest but for people to have thought I was going to have the same wedding as Joe blogs down the road is just ridiculous, and for some reason I got really stressed about it last night :/

The boys are ok now thank you, got them out for a play and a cuddle and they seem a bit happier.

What matters about the photos is that the people you love are in them. And does the dancing matter that much? You want two girls, have two girls.

I knew what you meant really, on all points, I'm always confused why these things matter.

Again, just say, 'it's my wedding'.

Oh man, wedding planning and everybody having an opinion about it is harsh. I feel your pain since I went through that too and I think nearly everybody who is married/getting married will have experienced it in some form.

My wedding was not at all what my husband and I wanted, not only because people, but also because of an accident I had that made it hard to walk. I'm so glad we did marry, but we're going to give a party somewhere down the road to do it how WE want it and since it's not the official wedding everybody can now stuff it. XD

Janine has such a valid point. It's YOUR wedding (and your fiances), it should be easy to say it is. But it's hard.